The long road home…..

Today was one of those days. You know, the ones where you question what the hell you’re doing on this planet.

The fact that I can’t just grab my passport and head to the nearest plane station left me feeling like my legs are filled with lead. Patience is not something I suffer from, let’s just be clear about that upfront.

The Midwest is in the middle of a wee winter snap so this morning’s windchill of -4F (-20C) felt like a punch in the face with an iceberg. It’s hard to find a happy place mentally when your skin feels like it’s on fire; which is ironic given there’s no heat in a 6 state radius of this tundra.

Times like these the only place to hide is in my photos. They take me somewhere else; to a place I crave like air. It’s hard to explain that feeling. Some people are fortunate and they are born where they belong and never know the emptiness of feeling adrift in foreign places with no place to anchor.

I keep telling myself ‘soon.’ Soon I’ll be in my mountains near my lakes in the one place life makes sense. I still have my Falcon’s Eye against my heart every day with the other half in the waters of Loch Ness. I like to think the stones are connected and I’m tied to the one below the water; my invisible link to home no matter how far away I may be right now.

Looking down the Royal Mile in Edinburgh. The moody clouds added to the picture
Looking down the Royal Mile in Edinburgh. The moody clouds added to the picture
The mist rolling in over Loch Ness on Friday 13th.
The mist rolling in over Loch Ness on Friday 13th.
The Ross Fountain looking towards Edinburgh Castle. There's now a fence around the fountain for safety reasons so glad I have a pic without it!
The Ross Fountain looking towards Edinburgh Castle. There’s now a fence around the fountain for safety reasons so glad I have a pic without it!
The fountain and the castle
The fountain and the castle
The second name I've chosen for myself, Margaret. This is a stained glass in St Giles Cathedral on the Royal Mile, Edinburgh
The second name I’ve chosen for myself, Margaret. This is a stained glass in St Giles Cathedral on the Royal Mile, Edinburgh
Thursday's story down Rose Street in Edinburgh. Love the detail in the metal work
Thursday’s story down Rose Street in Edinburgh. Love the detail in the metal work

 

Author: MacScottie

I'm a South African-born American who dabbles in writing, photography and cookery. I lived in England for 6 years before moving to America. My first trip to Scotland was in 2003 and it was love at first sight. 4 trips later & I'm now on a quest to find a way back to my soul-home in Scotland. I've picked up favourite foods in each place I've lived so I'm a product of all the places I've been. A sprinkling of this, a dash of that and in an emergency, a generous splash of Scotch!

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