Here we go! Roll on 40!

Today marks my last day in my 30’s and there’s a Strawberry Moon rising tonight to mark the solstice. Love it! Turning 40 on an auspicious day because it won’t be a full moon on a solstice again until after I’m long gone.

I was born at official sunrise time on the winter solstice and now I’m on the other side of the magic line and it’s summer. WOOT!

Turning 40 has terrified me for a long time but I’ve decided sod it, I’m going to rock being 40! It’s been a gift denied to friends long gone. They never made it this far so I’m going to rock it for them as much as myself.

We spent the day at the beach; it felt so good being back in the ocean. There was no swimming allowed as there was a rip current but just sitting in the water was enough. Sand between my toes and sun on my face with the waves breaking. Damn I’ve missed the sea!

I took a walk to do some late-30’s contemplating; things I’ve done; things I haven’t done yet. There were teeny little hermit crabs in the shallows and of course, that sent my brain on a tangent.

We are always home. Our bodies are home. Wherever we are, we’re always home. My body isn’t in the state I want it to be, which could be why I keep trying to escape where I am. Crabs take their homes everywhere.

Crabs can’t exist in all environments though; we’re the same. Each of us in unique and we thrive in different environments, so when we’re out of that place, we’re uncomfortable. My ‘home’ doesn’t thrive here and I’m aware of that. So it’s time to put my home in a place where it works at its best but irrespective of where that is, I’m always home.

Wherever you go, you take yourself with you. So tidy out your ‘home’ and make it exactly what you want it to be on the inside because it will follow you everywhere. Put it in an environment where it can thrive. Environment is internal as well as external.

I found a shell on the beach which sums up where I am right now. I’ve grown and while it’s time to shed the old, the old has taught me what I know. It’s time to grow on it, add to it and make it better.

My old shell was home and the good parts will add to my new home.

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A new shell growing on an old one

Never stop growing.

Author: MacScottie

I'm a South African-born American who dabbles in writing, photography and cookery. I lived in England for 6 years before moving to America. My first trip to Scotland was in 2003 and it was love at first sight. 4 trips later & I'm now on a quest to find a way back to my soul-home in Scotland. I've picked up favourite foods in each place I've lived so I'm a product of all the places I've been. A sprinkling of this, a dash of that and in an emergency, a generous splash of Scotch!

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