It’s been a while since I last checked in. Things have been somewhat chaotic of late.
My brother is finally up and running and returned to work today. We’re very grateful for the support and kind words people sent through. The kindness of strangers cannot be overstated!
As far as possible, I’ve tried to work on the concept of my 4 rooms for well-being; physical, mental, emotional & spiritual.
The physical room is finally getting a long overdue airing out. Daily walks are back on the menu now that it’s warming up. Thank heavens! It’s become my walking meditation. I walk off my stress and think through whatever’s bugging me. It’s a 2 for 1 bargain! Pretty soon it will be light enough in the mornings to walk to the station – YAY!
Seeing nature come alive again is such a mental boost. It’s a reminder that no matter how bleak and shitty things look or how long it lasts, the light will always return. The grass is definitely greener!
The mental room is more organised. Focusing intently for shorter periods of time got better results than slogging away endlessly with half a mind. Learn to say no when there are too many things on your plate. I know, easier said than done, but just once, SAY IT. NO.
Homesickness gave the emotional room a rather hard knock. When you’re trying to stay afloat in a sea of chaos, it’s difficult to keep your focus. Progress on my plans to move to Scotland ground to a half for a while, which left me feeling like I was trying to achieve the impossible.
Since the last time I wrote, I’ve passed my citizenship test and will be doing my oath ceremony at the end of the month. As I’m doing a formal name change with my citizenship, there’s the small matter of changing my existing passport with the South African embassy. What I thought would take a few weeks to do turns out to be more like 18 months. Finding out that I’d possibly need to delay my move by 18 months was the emotional equivalent of shooting my childhood puppy. Total devastation.
Thankfully the UK visa people are logical and the court order will be sufficient for them to link my old and new names for a visa without needing to change my birth certificate. WAHOOOOOOO! The day I found that out felt like I’d won the lottery!!
Little things like that make me believe the universe will make this move happen for me. It will work.
Spiritually I’ve made time to feed my soul things that make me happy. Reading, music and walking meditations have created an oasis of calm in the chaos.
I’d love to figure out why when one area of life falls into balance, something else falls out. It’s as if there needs to be something out of whack or things wouldn’t be right with the world.
On the plus side, there are more rooms in balance than ones that are out of whack so that’s a step in the right direction.
Serenity is achievable; now only to remember how.
